The road to happiness...

Stop acquiring things & start collecting experiences.

Oh Toes!

Oh... my... TOES!!!!!
I MUST have these shoes that I have been coveting for months now.  They have been patiently waiting for me to swing by REI (my absolute fave store on earth) and pick them on up.  They called out to me that moment that I saw them.  I literally break into a trance of sorts when I see pictures of them or when I am near them.  I crave them like the shoe junkie that I am.

Brace yourself- you might just fall in love with these too once you get past the Fred Flintstone look of them.

Yes, they are primitive looking, but oh my word I am in LOVE with these shoes!!

I have always been an outdoor fanatic and also a lover of shoes.  Combine my two loves and what do you get?!  Yep, you guessed it- these gorgeous Vibram FiveFinger (toe) shoes.

Really, I am absolutely smitten with these.

Think of all those times when you just wanted your toes to be FREE, yet you didn't want to roam around in fear of stepping on sharp sticks or rocks...








I really do long to travel with them and take cool pics of my cool toesy shoes with cool pics of the places I have been with my kick ass shoes like this:

I am thinking I could make an awesome coffee table book of places I have been with my toesy shoes.

How cool would THAT be?!

For now, I am thinking a trip over to REI to try them on yet once again, because afterall, (HINT HINT to the hubs), my dreaded birthday is just around the corner.

waiting on results

So today the hubs and I went to volunteer at a polling place in Mesa.  We were there standing 75 feet from the polling entrance holding a sign and handing out cards in support of a good friend of ours as the good ol' residents of Mesa went in to cast their votes.  Yes, this is soooo out of character for the hubs and I to begin with, but hey, we were doing our best to be "there" for our friend that was running for Constable.
Let me tell you a few things that I learned from this experience:
- some people are just CRAZY. 
- some people need SMACKED.
- did I mention some people are just CRAZY?!
- the hubs and I are a good team.
- the hubs and I SUCK at campaigning.  hahahaha.
- standing in the rain holding a political sign soaking wet while the opposing party runs for cover- PRICELESS.


There we stood, Team  hubs & I standing our ground come hell or high water (including lightning, wind and heat) rooting for our friend in his noble efforts to try and overturn a very prominent LDS family that had formerly ran unopposed.  


Damn it I am really hoping my friend wins this race and proves that typical church bond doesn't always win all.  For the next 30 minutes I shall keep my fingers and toes crossed for him.

Convert dreams into realities.

All of us do it.  
We all dream of something or another.
Some people dream of journeys, adventures and excitement. Some dream of wide open spaces and sitting on the front porch.  Others dream of a true love that has yet to exist in their life...
I often dream of creating a simple life that focuses on living and loving each day to the fullest.  Perhaps this day shall come soon, but until then, I will continue to dream.  What is your dream?  If you have stopped dreaming, today is a good day to start again.


Here's to converting dreams into realities.

The Seed Man

So I went to watch my new fave movie- The Switch today.  It was as great as I had hoped it would be.  I have to admit I was anxious to take my hubs to see this one to get his reaction to the whole sperm donor subject.


Over the years, the hubs and I have had very candid convos about this subject as for us, getting pregnant will take some planning as we have had issues in the past.  We have made some changes in our lives over the past few years in hopes of working toward visiting the fertility doc soon to help to make our dream come true of having our own little one wandering the earth with us someday. 

While watching this movie I couldn't help BUT think of my own "situation" and the whole baby thing.  Let's face it.  I will be 35 next month and I am NOT getting any younger.  Ugh.  I have put the baby thing off for way too many years, though now I finally feel as if I am "ready" to give all I have to a tiny little mini me (or him).


Here is where it gets tricky for me.  IF this visit that we plan on taking to the miracle baby making doc does not work, this leaves me in a dilemma.  I am PRO obtaining "seed" from another man if needed (if the vasectomy reversal does not work).  The hubs- not so much.  He is not keen on the idea at all of me accepting "seed" from another man, especially a few of the willing seed men that I have already lined up.

"Seed Man"

I am a planner.  This means I like to PLAN things.  So, in my little bird brain my plan works like this:  we get the vasectomy reversal done, if it does not work, we immediately move to plan "b".  Plan "b" would be to try the operation again.  Then if plan "b" doesn't work we move right along to plan "c".  Plan "c" is where it gets potentially complicated for the hubs.  Plan "c" involves one of my dearest guy friends stepping up to provide me with what I need- seed!  Helloooo, it is not like I am doing this the old fashion fun way here, I am talking about doing this the correct medical way (just like in this movie).  It is not like I am going to go have a hot night out with the man with the intent to get knocked up.


Sooo... after the movie my hubs says "see that is why I don't want us to KNOW the donor".  Oh damn it, my bubble just burst.  I just don't see WHY I need to go get some anonymous guys sperm to create a baby.  Why not take some from a source that I already know very well and love (not the way I love my hubs)?  I really do feel that the baby would still be OUR baby even though the sperm came from elsewhere.


Hmmm... so much to think about.  Good thing I have 3 seed men already lined up and waiting just in case I make that middle of the night call.  Hahahaha.


No really, I do have my 3 seed men lined up.  And yes, I do now see how this could get complicated, especially when the donor is someone from my past. 


More to think about. 


On another note- the movie was awesome and I loved loved loved every minute of it. :)

forgotten

To my sad little pathetic blog:

I am sorry that I neglected you yesterday.  Today I will pay much more attention to you and perhaps actually sit down and write something worthwhile.  Maybe if you are lucky I will post a few pretty pics to spice things up for you a bit.

For now, this little love note will have to do.  

Decide to be in it.

Sometimes you just have to decide to be in it.  Whatever "it" might be.

Be in or be out... just choose something.

This photo sums it up for me.  

This place is utterly confused about its own identity.

It is a grocery store, grill AND a laundry facility.

No joke, this place exists.  I took this picture a few years ago in TX.

Man, I just LOVE Texas.

QUESTION OF THE DAY

Why is it that people can pour their hearts out on something like Facebook for all to read, but can't carry on a "real" conversation with their friends or family in person?  How did we ever survive as a society before all of the reality shows, social media and so forth? Seriously, what the hell is wrong with people these days?!!

I, for one, cherish my girls night out to vent, complain, laugh, cry and whatever else comes about...

today is the day.

Today is the day... 
that my business partner and I decided to finally call it quits.


Today is the day...
that I look around and say "what else could go wrong?".


Today is the day...
that I have finally had enough of it all.


Today is the day...
that I ask myself "now what?".


Today is the day...
that I could really just keep on driving and not stop till I am sitting on the beach with a drink in my hand enjoying the simple beauty of a sunset.


Oh damn this sucky day.  
Thank goodness there is (hopefully) tomorrow to try again.

Jump Right In

Oh how the water calls my name.  

It doesn't matter if it is an ocean, a river, a lake... it all speaks my language and I speak its language too.

The waters may be rough, the waters may be calm but it always is there beckoning me to come and enjoy.

Water for me is serenity.  It is my meditation.  My calm.  My inner peace.

Nowhere else am I at total peace with myself and with the world.

Today I will share a glimpse of one of my happy places... and one of my recent peaceful moments.  Enjoy!

Breaking Up

That's it.

I declare that I am officially breaking up with my current life.
I am done.  I am moving on... it is so time to move on.

Current life- it has been swell, but I need more out of you than you are currently giving and you are just not providing what I need or what I want.

Future life- wow, you have a lot to live up to and I expect even more out of you than I ever expected before.

Note to self:  Follow your dreams, they know the way.

-Birdie

Fly Away Home

Today I dream about leaving this nest and flying away to create a new home...

Lately I have had this nagging feeling that I need to "fly away" to a home that I don't even know yet.  Funny thing is that each time I visit this place, I instantly feel right at home even though I have yet to spend more than a week there at a one time.

I bought a little land in another state about 5 years ago during a very unstable time in my life.  I purchased it site unseen and was basically going off an instinctual feeling that I had.  It was helpful that my parents and brother had already purchase their land there so it did make it a bit easier to decide to buy.  Before I knew it, I flew out there, purchased the land and crossed my fingers that I was making a good decision.  At the time, I figured it would be my little nest egg or retirement home someday. 

 

Who knew that my "someday" would come sooner than anticipated and now I am having to make some big decisions in my life.  

I now know that I am indeed moving there, now it is just the decision of WHEN.  I sit here and think to myself that I am indeed nuts to leave all that I have here.  I then remember the peaceful feeling that I have each time I visit this land of unknown and land of uncertainty.

Last time I was there I hopped on the family tractor for the first time and instantly I felt like I was home.  I experienced the most calm, serene and peaceful feeling that has not been matched yet.  I now dream of tending to an organic garden, building a home, raising chickens and a perhaps having a goat wander around my lot.

Here's to my new adventure... I soon shall fly away to a new home.

-Birdie